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I am secret, nobody wants to open my door
I switch my mind into letters hiding in my own world
I want to open my garden waiting the right one
but I know it’s hard and sad
It is a time we all need self care
I ever died and I am living with more thinking about humans

2020 l am gonna be my 32 years
I had been a patient since I was a freshman at college
but today l throw away those white tablets
I cured myself at this turning time

I know many people like me struggling at the age of sentimentality without a guider to break the darkness
I am thinking what is love
why some love make us sick and mad
how l could help you when you’re suffering and your parents crying for your pain but helpless and hopeless

18 years bitterness walk with me
today he or she still don’t want to leave
but does it matter?
you are not my enemy but my friend now teaching me you will be different

but why my eyes still filling with tears
something life deprived will never come back
I have to pay for my awful childhood through my whole life

dear friends, we are not strangers, I want to hold your hands to embrace the sunshine, I am waiting you open my door